Malin

haha jag hade köpt lätt keso och trodde den smaka samma som vanlig keso, när jag käka den trodde jag att det var gammal, fast bästföredatumet inte varit än, men aja sånt händer ju tänkte jag. sen hörde jag min syrra prata om den och hon fatta inte vilken idiot det var so köpt den, som aldrig lär sig. hihi tänkte jag men jag berätta aldrig vem idioten var :p det lite små lustiga är att min katt vägra äta det, hon var ju bulimiker ett tag (jag kalla henne för tjockis 24/7 och efter ett tag så börja hon spy hela tiden, det var inte meningen!!!(om någon idiot tror att jag helt seriöst trodde att hon var bulimiker och att hon spyde pga mina kommentarer är denna människan ett sorgligt kapitel)) nu är hon i alla fall över denna lilla period efter som hon vägrar käcka låg fettmat, tjock som hon är är hon fortfarande mattes lilla älskling, tussan och malin 4-ever <3<3<3

shit hur dum har man inte blivit? när jag kom till belgien tyckte jag att tågen var fräscha och lite annorlunda lixom, men ändå nu när jag kom hem och titta lite på bilder så såga jag bilder på någon som åkt tåg till sthlm och jag ba shit palla första klass, tills jag insåg att det var ju sveriges andraklass, ja jag säger då det XD

btw så titta jag på nått gammalt avsnitt av morgonsoffan idag, det e inte riktigt min grej, men det e ju björn lixom :D aja de hade en grej om att mini hundar e så ute och att bögkompisen är den nya accessoaren och jag menar det har jag ju så att det räcker och blir över (+ några som inte kommit ut än (ni vet vilka ni är :P)) så passa er nu here i come :P

haha jag och maria satt och kollade på city tv (typ världens bästa musikkanal från bulgarien som jag får in :P) och tell me med p diddy och christina aguilera visades och maria säger lite triumferade det där är christina augilera och jag ba eh... ja? och hon ba ja och det där är jay-z. hon ser min blick och inser hur fel hon har och innser att nej det e ju 50 cent!

bra maria, bra maria du är sååå duktig :P

nädå man jag kan inte annat än älska min lilla syster <3

malin did it again, i lost my cell, i think its the fourth one, maybe the fifth that i've lost. well any way it was the most expensive one, but i think the police have it so i should be okay. anyway nothing much has happened here, there was a party on Tuesday, which kinda sucked, it was cool in the beginning so amy called me and said that i should come, but when i came the party had already died :(

tomorrow i'm going to shop some more with my mum or go to åland, tell u later what i chose.

see ya!

igår var jag och mamma och titta på soffor och nu sår det mellan två stycken, men jag gillar båda så för mig spelar det ingen roll vilken det blir :D sen efter det så började jag måla mitt rum <3 det e två rosa väggar och två svarta, så jag ! aja nu måste jag hoppa in i duschen. jag har kallat in förstärkning så amy ska komma och hjälpa mig att måla :D

i'm so disappointed with gamla uppsala buss right now!! i was standing on the bus stop out in the cold with almost no clothes until 02.45 am yesterday freezing my as of and the fucking bus never sowed up! i'm so fucking glad that i got to borrow a cell from this really gross guy that just wouldn't stop hitting on me, so could call my sister that could wake up my mum, that could come and get me.

nu sitter jag och amy i stenhagen och firar våra 18-årsdagar det är lite halv myssigt.

haha det är bara det att det gått lite snett.

en halvtimme sen:

malin inser att att amy köpt choklad pudding istället för choklad mousse:

fan ta dig amy jävla ig-barn, hur kan man vara så jävla klantig??

vadå då?

du har köpt choklad pudding, choklad puddig!!

ja?

vi skulle ha choklad mousse

vad e skillnaden?

STOR!!!!

tystnad

amy...

ja?

ja har glömt champagnen

HAR DU GLÖMT CHAMPAGNEN!!!!

samtalet fortsätter, fast rollerna är ombytta XD

nu ska jag åter gå till diskussionen om min yngsta lilla syrras sexliv, shit jag tror jag dör, nä vi måste byta samtalämne :P

pia ska komma och hälsa på mig om typ två veckor, asså göteborgarna klarar sig bara inte utan mig! nejdå men hon är hjärtligt välkommen. idag var jag med amy och nu ska vi iväg och se alex på grand <3

ha de
malin

i found out a few hours ago that there were going to be an info meting about naturbasår today and that i really should go. my mum was going to come but as usual my dad decided that she shouldn't and she didn't. amy tried to come but it didn't work out with the buses. so i chickened out, i didn't dare to attend the meting and now when it's ten minuets left until it starts and it's impossible for me to go, i feel so fucking stupid, why didn't i go i really had to and it would have helped me a lot, why have i become this coward, i'm so fucking stupid i hate myself, what happened to the old malin???

i was at an interview today for spunk and it went pretty good, first when we came there my mum was like what is this place!?! but she soon changed her mind and thought that that place would really suite me. there going to get back to me later in the spring so now i just have to hope for the best, wish me luck :D

and today i was thinking of a conversation amy and i had a few days ago and it want like this:

Amy picks up my signs dvd and says: aah... den här såg jag första gången hemma hon katja.

I: haha första gången ag såg den var också hos katja.

Amy: hennes tjejmidda /fest i sjuan?

I: haha jag precis och vi käka ...

Amy: vit chokladmousse till efterätt

I: och pizza!

haha lol we were at the same party without remembering each other, but that was when we used to hate each other so i guess thats why we don't remember each other :P

jag vakna nyss och hade tänkt åka till ikea eller ner på stan med mamma som skulle vara ledig på eftermiddagen, men pappa hade tydligen tänkt att de skulle montera hyllor i stället och då måste hon rätta sig efter det. jag är bara så less när ska hon skaffa ett eget liv? jag är bara hemma två veckor sen kommer jag inte hem förens i sommar och det är hennes jävla hus inte hans. men men jag pallar knappt bry mig längre, idag är det i alla fall Grey's Anatomy, så jag får trösta mig med det, det är visserligen repris, men efter som tv var paj i belgien har jag inte sett det avsnittet än.

puss och kram
vi syns på stan <3

Today i spent the most of the day in ikea <3 and i got some money for snacks and i was really hungry, so what did i do?

a. bought a salad
b. bought a lot of chocolate
c. bought a par of shoes

yes ofc i bought a pair of shoes!! malin i back in town and it feels good to be me again!

as i said i hanged out with amy today. first we went to my new house <3 and tried to come up with some ideas of how i'm going to decorate it. we came up with a few but nothing is decided yet, after that we went to maxi and bought drink mix and some snacks, then we took the bus and met rikard who gave us finding nemo and after that we went to my place. but when we got home we noticed that we lost the bag of chips and we had to bicycle to coop to get some more. there we met nicklas and his boyfriend, talked with them for awhile and started to bicycle home, but amy's bike broke so we had to walk. when we got home we ate dinner drank some sparkling wine and talked for a bit, then we saw finding nemo, which was surprisingly good. i've been awoiding it since it got out and amy's been the only person that managed to get me to see it :P

now i'm in uppsala! and yesterday i went to hannas house and ate pancakes and just hanged out. after that i went to the airport , where i met some girls from the school that was really pissed, because louisa and i were suppose to go with them in a taxi and this was decided two weeks ago, but louisa went home a week earlier, so i assumed that the taxi thing was of, so i went to hanna's before i left for the airport. i can understand that they were angry and everything but i mean even if i knew that we still were going it could have been nice of them to tell me that the taxi was ordered and at what time it was leaving. and apparently there been talking shit about me, but i just think thats so lame. well i had a really good time at hanna's and the fligth went well, soon i'm meting amy <3 but first i need some sleep!

see ya

YES today i'm going home :D but the funny thing is that i don't really feel like it, i had a lot of fun with the girls (especially with verna <3) yesterday, i know that i'll be back in two weeks or something but i'm going to miss them. hihi but i will survive thanks to all my wonderful friends i Sweden <3 i'm leaving ssb at 16.30 and then i'm going to hanna's place and around seven i'll go to the airport and 23.15 i'll be standing on swedish ground :D :D

yesterday i hanged out a lot in vernas room and she was suppose to practice my english homework with me, but instead i started teaching her Swedish. she picked these random phrases from har swedish book like; "förstår ni varandra" (do u understand each other), då kan ni läsa varandras tankar (then u can read each others thoughts) or jag vill vara för mig själv nu (i want to be for myself now) XD after a wile filippa came in and thats when things got realy overhand. haha here's some of the phrases thats now included in vernas vocabulary:

magister sjöholm skulle jag kunna få be om att ställa en fråga?
får får får? (dose sheep get sheep?)
vad glor du på? (what r u looking at?)
sköt du ditt, fjortisjävel
ect.

For everything you do
I'd like to swallow you
And everyday I'm gonna blame you
And even if you justify
Every fucking bullshit lie
It only makes me want to break you

You pull me down
And you crucify my name
You make me insane
It's broken now
Don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playing

'Cause I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me

When you repeated me
Take advantage of me
The only thought I get of you sickens me
Everybody knows your fate
You're everything I fucking hate
And I'm everything that you could never be

You pull me down
And you crucify my name
You make me insane
It's broken now
Don't ever look my way
Don't even think I'm playing

'Cause I fucking hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me

And I fucking you hate you
You're such a liar
And I love to hate you
You're all the same to me

(Fuck you)
(Fuck you)
(Fuck you)

i'm sitting in art right now and i'm suppose to write about my emo sculpture, but i don't feel like it. haha i guess it looks like i'm pretty negative these days, at least if you read my blog, but i'm not. the reason why i'm like this is "kappviftaren" i'm so fucking annoyed with this person, i fucking hate him :P

hihi i got over 600 song from filippa<3 today so malin is happy :D

today we had a strength and endurance test on P.E. and it was so exhausting, a specially for a person as lazy as me :P i've been really slow since and haven't really done anything of importance today, except that i finally had a phone meting with my mum that i've been looking forward to, she is hard to reach these days XD

my little little sister turns 14 today!!! she's becoming a "fjortis" <3 and i so wish that i could be there! :(



i <3 u, minna!

today has been a real music day, i was listening to emo music, but i thought that it was to depressing so i switch to death metal (out of all the music genes that are out there :P) but i got tired of it and has been listening to rock/punk since. my new favorite song is Flatline Fever by The Bones, i just can't get enough!

this is three bands that i might see in a not to distant future

i'm sick and tired of school now i've been studding all day but i don't get any were... :(

After being locked up in this inferno, it felt so good to go out the day before yesterday and it was a historical moment, it was the first time the hole gang went out together. first we went to sverigebaren and took two drinks, but there wasn't so much going on there, so we went to snooker to try to find the spanish guy, but he wasn't there. then we went and ate pita and after that we saw some kids beating up a old man, and it was horrible, how can people do such a thing?
then we went to snug and thats were we spend the rest of the night. i love my girls <3

Yesterday me, verna and filippa went to la pomme drank some fruit beer and margaritas and just hanged out, it was so nice to do that outside of the castle that i'm so fuciking tired of.

Jag orkar inte gå till skolan
Jag orkar inte stanna hemma
Jag orkar inte plugga
Jag orkar inte sitta på det här jävla slottet
Jag orkar inte gå ut
Jag orkar inte städa
Jag orkar inte vara glad
Jag orkar inte vara så depp
Jag orkar inte åka hem
Jag orkar inte stanna
Jag orkar inte leva som jag gör nu
Jag orkar inte dö
Jag orkar inte att jag gnäller
Jag orkar inte att jag låter så emo
Jag orkar inte den här texten...

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Förlåt mig för alla min i-landsproblem ja vet att typ minst 95% av alla i hela världen har det sämre än mig, men allt känns bara så sjukt tungt just nu. grejen e att jag inte kan sätta fingret på precis vad det är, jag bara går runt och känner mig sjukt deppig hela tiden, det e liksom som en tryckande känsla som aldrig försvinner, den är där 24/7. även om ja pratar med människorna hemma i sverige eller flummar med dem på slottet, så kan ja bara inte var helt lycklig, jag kan skratta och le, men det känns bara så falskt.
Jag känner mig som en skugga av mitt forna jag, jag har bara ingen energi kvar. jag känner mig så instängd, jag bara måste få komma ut. jag går runt och tänker på att jag ska ta livet av mig hela tiden, när jag pratar med mamma, mina kompisar eller när mikael går igenom diagram. jag tycker fan att det ska vara en mänsklig rättighet, rätten att ta sitt liv. jag vet att det är normalt att sitta och fundera på sånt lite då och då, det har jag i alla fall alltid gjort, men nu tänker jag verkligen på det var tionde minut, men misströsta icke jag kommer aldrig göra de, jag lovar, så fucked up e jag inte, ja e en dramaqueen som vanligt och ja ska rycka upp mig, det är bara det att det är så svårt, för allt känns så lönlöst...

aja nu ska jag sova, om jag orkar... :P

I was sitting in my room being really bored and I got this brilliant idea, well at least i thought it was brilliant at the time, I was going to cut my bangs! a few minutes later it was done, I had cut my bangs and the result was not what I had in mind, now I look terrible and I can't afford to go to the hairdresser, I just can't. I'm so fucking stupid.....

before & after

i'm having pretty fun in art now days, you know why???

because my teacher has already kind of promised me a mvg, the funny thing is that it's the really shitty stuff that she likes. like the thing i did most recently, the emo sketches and sculptures, i mean everyone dose them, all though pia <3 is the one in the castle that dose it the most. the thing is that i told my teacher that everyone dose it, but she just would not listen
and she was like;oh malin u can make them as a sculpture
and i was like; okay (because i suck at sculpturing and you have to do at least on of them in the course).
well i did and when we were sitting down discussing my grade,
she was like, well malin you are in between vg and mvg, i mean the last thing you did is definitely a mvg (and i was thinking; whaat?) but the akvarell thing is more vg because you followed the book to much,
and then i was like; but the meaning of that project was to follow the book and then do stuff by my self and see how i've developed and then i asked what do i have to do to get a mvg
and she was like; maybe you could be more critical towards your own work.
and i was like; but i am in the text i've written to all my projects, have u read it?
and she was like; okay, but then i'll give u a mvg

end of story XD

i think it so funny have i always manage to manipulate my art teachers to give me a mvg when i'm in between two grades :p i mean how i cried over that my dad had thrown away all of my sketches (well he had)  or when i looked so disappointed in first grade that she changed her mind XD

these are the sketches and sculptures i did to get an mvg, i think they suck, especially the sculptures, but they got me the mvg :P



peace out
malin

okay now i've had the ssbmun thing and it was okay, sometimes it was really funny actually but i was so fucking tired when i got back from it, that i totally forgot about my developing talk, shit i'm really slipping here. dropping off is starting to make more and more sense, i'm a bad, bad girl...

kisses
malin

We're suppose to have a ssbmun tomorrow and that's a United Nations roll play. I think that it could be really fun, but the thing is that they've given us to little time to prepare for it. I'm south africa and I'm working with pontus and emma and the issue that were suppose to discuss is child labor. the thing is that I've been sick for a long time and that has emma as well, so the hole grope hasn't even met yet and we haven't planed anything. so right now were sitting on msn panicing and not knowing what to do with our selfs. well I'll see how it goes tomorrow, I so feel like skipping the hole thing but I can't :(

cheek out this creepy lady, I think it's so grows


http://www.cathiejung.com/

hugs
malin

The Castle Syndrome

Being locked up in this manner, surrounded by wilderness (rabbits, trees and parrots) and being in such close proximity to the school meddles with the mind. Up to a certain point you might not be showing any signs of the syndrome, but this is just a delusion. One day you will realize that you actualy have the syndrome, but then it is already too late. You will notice the impact this has had on you especially well when you are surrounded by people without it. The most clear sign is that your social bounders have been drastically loosened. Things you might not have even considered doing before, you are doing just to entertain yourself. The main cause might be syndrome, but being so detached from the real world and having so little triggers makes you develop it, esecially the bigger your imagination=bigger syndrome. People with a lot of imagination and intelligence need more activities to focus themselves, and are also the most dangerous people to have the castle syndrome, because they get the best ideas. Suddenly, you start considering riding stuffed ponies and ringing doorbells dressed as a bearded man selling cookies with a transvestite prostitute. So yeah, stay away from castles... dum dum duuum.

Peace Outt
Love,
Verna

haha funny thing, after lunch i had a headache and i set the alarm and went to sleep in my room, but the problem with my room is that i can here the music coming from the music room and thats so disturbing. so i thought; i know what the solution is, i'll just go to filippas nice quiet room instead. the only problem is that i forgot the alarm in my room and didn't wake up in time for my religion lesson, so i missed the test and now i have to explain all this to my teacher and i so don't feel like it! :( another funny thing though is that my sister kind of did the same thing today :P

from her blog today:
"Det straffar sig i längden! ibland är man sisåhär osmart.. knappt sovit på hela förra veckan och idag straffade det sig, vaknade inte när det var dags att gå till skolan förns när min sista lektion skulle börjat då 20 min senare, stannade hemma eftersom skulle inte hunnit till den lektionen ändå men men thats just life.
Nu har maria sovit 14 h skönt att få sova ordentligt nu, längesen man faktist gjorde det. Man glömmer ju bort sånt när man är vaken och "orkar inte" sova. Nu are maria going to plugging, lol fin svengelska.
hade fint
//maria"


haha she just like her older sist XD

xoxo
Malin

haha just as i suspected it was so hard to go up this morning. and at brekfast i found out that were going to jog on PE today and i'm so not attending, i mean i'm still sick, you know :P well i am and it sucks, i haven't been so sick as i was for years and i hate it!! well well now i'm going to french and after that i have to show the plan over my PE lesion which i'm suppose to have tomorrow, which i haven't done yet, i'm a bad bad girl :P

wish me luck on my religion test :D

see ya

sorry verna but i pallar inte att skriva på engelska :P

jag e sjukt trött just nu, typ till och med för trött för att sova XD men men jag antar att jag får plugga lite mer religion eller nått :P annars så har den här dagen varit så sjukt värdelös, jag har inte fått ett skit gjort och jag har inte villat upp mig heller, typ varit inne på msn, tittat på rottatouille som faktiskt var ganska bra, även om jag somna XD
så har jag skrivit massa till en amerikansk tjej som hette amy, först trodde jag att det var min amy, som precis innan sagt att hon aldrig skulle skaffa myspace och så addar en amy mig, fan vad jag skratta och fan vad jag kände mig dum när det inte var hon XD men men vi hade några trevliga diskussioner om hur det är att leva i europa vs usa och hur det är att vara svart vs vit.

eller shit en sak fick vi faktiskt gjort idag! ja och filippa boka hostel i london, så den 30 april sticker jag, filippa, hanna och verna dit!!! så till alla som jag sagt att jag ska komma hem över valborg till, that's so not gonna happen :P

jag pallar inte gå till skolan imorgon, jag har liksom inte varit där på en vecka och bara suttit och pratat om att hoppa av under den tiden, så det kommer kännas sjukt tungt att kliva upp ur sängen imorgon bitti :(

hm... nu kanske jag ska se typ pretty woman eller nått, eller vänta jag bara måste läsa min fantasy serie, shit jag suger verkligen på att vara fantasy geek, hur kunde jag glömma det :O

hej hopp

now i'm sitting with filippa, and we (or filippa) had this crazy idea that we should chat on skype instead of talking, i know how geeky that is, but we're having quite some fun XD next step is web cam :P

nothing has really happened today, everyone in the castle has just been so slow. i'm supposed to study for my religion test, but it's just three pages. so i haven't gathered the energy to start yet, but i'm going to, i eeh... promise??

the big event of the day was that marcus said that he might come here to belgium and i really hope that he does because it would be so much fun! so if you know marcus make sure that you help me to convince him that he just have to come, because i have the feeling that he likes to plan stuff and say that he's going to do it, and later not fulfil it, i mean valentines day hallo :P no marcus you know i love you, try to raise the money and maybe convince one or two hot guy friends to come XD

well i'm going to return to my studies now
kisses malin

filippa sent it to me and i love it!!!!

I'm surrendering completely to this Björn Gustafsson mania that is sweeping the country. he is so cute and so fucking funny!!! i'm so going to put up the clip here, when it comes up on youtube ^^ and now i'm watching the illusionist, and it's actually pretty good. it's going to be interesting to see how it all develops.



kisses
malin

i'm so fucking tired! and now i have to do my history and i so don't feel like it! these are the pictures from yesterday btw, and everyone look terrible, because my cellphone camera sucks.

apparently it's exactly a year ago, that amy and i had one of our nights <3 and this time we saw the tina tuner movie, i want to go home sooo bad, i miss u amy!! <3<3

ja kul hade vi ett tag i alla fall, vi dansa och verna prata som vanligt om att vi så måste till en club, men utegångsförbudet varade ju även denna helg :/ fast nästa vecka då jävlar XD sen började folk försvinna, först filippa som älskar sin sömn lite för mkt och sen verna, som jag hitta i duschen senare, vad som hände där lämnar jag åt er fantasi XD när jag och bina skulle gå till verna senare, så vägra bitchen att öppna dörren, vilket resulterade i all jag och bina hade värsta ånga personliga fyllesncket till långt in på små timmarna / nu :P

nu ska malin få sova :P god natt <3